Voice Note 6/7/2025
00:00 Feeling bad about? Not being offered a change in Rome. And. Yes, I think I have been behaving like, I'm some kind of entitled guy who needs to be. Allocated or assigned some job, which is befitting. I seem to be carrying that. On my shoulder, a tip of the block and?
00:29 I have really not done much to upskill and showcase my talent. I have been. Coursing along with pretty much average skills and pretty much average communication. So, what are the areas which I have neglected and which needs to be? Worked upon. I would say networking with people who matter.
01:00 And. Listening to them and saying things. At times, which are insightful, which are useful. And which provide. Meaning to what is really going on. Can you sense the meta aspects of our interactions? Do you really understand how the interactions work? They seem to be some kind of structure, which is being followed.
01:35 And unless I also stick to that. There are elements. Popular culture. References to popular culture, which I really am not familiar with. Which I don't find engaging. And which are transitory in nature. No, I'm rambling here. Let me come back to where I started, is, what should I be doing different or better?
02:09 Instead of going all over the place. What are my objectives? I would want to get a bit more pay. Yes, a bit more of recognition. A bit more of valuable contribution instead of just filling up this Excel sheet. But don't you understand the irony? Is that you're getting paid about three lakhs a month just to fill up some kind of Excel sheet.
02:45 And. You are craving about it. That there's too little work. What's the problem? Should. Just go about your own business and keep making. Why smarts over the day? Um, I can keep doing this till the cows come home. But what is important is that I put the right lessons the right values.
03:15 And. See how I can bring myself? Or Elevate myself to a higher level and platform, instead of just cruising along at some dumb pace, doing some dumb jobs. What is important is that I leverage my skills, is that I do things which are? Important and? Relevant and significant. And.
03:51 Use this as scaffolding. Become a better person. That's all I'm asking. Where should I? Take some complicated route when all I need to do is speak to myself. And. As long as it's harmless, and as long as I am not deluding myself and. Putting non-existent ideas into my head.
04:24 I should be pretty fine about all of this. And. This. Converge. To something meaningful and useful. It doesn't matter whether anybody reads it or not. What matters is that you have the ability to? Set up this flow of ideas. And create something which is of personal meaning and relevance.
05:01 Maybe? Even maybe, uh, if I believe that this will definitely in the long term? Uh, have. A wee bit of difference on your internal life and also manifest externally. With some kind of notional benefits. I think we are definitely better off than not doing anything at all about your present situation.
05:36 So I will stick to generalities. I do not want to. Mention names primarily because? Being the internet, you know how things work? Nobody knows. Who's a dog on the internet? Maybe I'm a dog? Was learn to talk? And. It was maybe as long as listening to this. And wants to feel better about it.
06:08 So be it? As long as I'm able to. Reduce my mental burden. Even by a tiny fraction. I think this is a good deal so. Don't look for tangible benefits from every single post or view. Those are not relevant metrics at all. What you should instead be doing is to focus more on.
06:43 Creating structure around your voice notes. Having some kind of. Modeling template or Express what you feel is going wrong or how you want to correct yourself and over a period of time. You should be able to. Do that. And gradually move yourself towards a higher level. There is one thing which is of concern.
07:18 The pain, which I'm experiencing. Is something which I need to accept as. A guest. Maybe an unwelcome guest, but I need to be impartial and pleasant to the pain. And really, see why I am experiencing this kind of pain. Okay, today's morning was another example, where things went really wild.
07:51 And. There were moments which I ring right. Having resorted to violence. And. Having slapped my son, I didn't slap him. I gave him a whack over the head. Shooting up. It shook me up. And we both left that conversation. Both of us felt bad about it the way. Turned out.
08:27 And. I don't think we had any positive takeaways from that interaction. So the the pain point in the entire interaction was that? Since either of us or both of us did not benefit from. The negative energy and the interaction. Why are we repeatedly indulging in such transactions? Why are we not able to?
09:02 Pull out of the mark and clean up our act. And become better people myself. I am equally to blame, if not entirely. I am significantly a contributor to all the negativity and the ill will and the bad feelings. So? Can I do something about it? Is the question? So?
09:30 Maybe I need to be cautious? When the first signs of anger? Are emerging. And I need to slow down. I need to consciously. On my bleeding. And my body awareness. And possibly do a count or a body scan. And take any steps you want. Uh, and as long as you don't lose your cool and your presence of mind.
10:06 What you need to do from here is to look at this as a lesson. Which needs Improvement and work on the areas of improvement. That's all you need to do. And try and. Take each step. Consciously. Remember the thought you had today while eating? Relax after every few bites.
10:34 Consciously learn to let go. Learn to slow down. Learn to take a deep breath. Maybe even multiple deep breaths slowly. Steadily. And feel the energy in your body. Which is? Going to make you feel? More aware, conscious and relaxed. So, this slowing down of thoughts of your breathing is what you need to consciously hook the mind and unhook the emotion.
11:17 The two steps here is stop the flow of emotions and. Take it to a sore, smoother, quieter. Where you can? Tame the anger and park it and make it your friend. And feel free to visit you every now and then, and you can speak to them, engage with them, and let them go.
11:43 Don't hang on to them. Don't hang on to any of the emotions, be it positive or negative. That's all for tonight, I should say. Unless I get even more carried away and. Like more stuff. Thank you.