Walk On and keep searching
How can I move on with this episode?
Today's interview was a sham, no doubt about it. But what could be a lesson learnt and how do I move forward with it? Instead of moping about another lost opportunity, I allowed one to get past, without making a half-decent attempt. What are your strengths and how do you wish to handle the episode? I'll need to specialize and stop bothering about the lack of direction. Stick to curl and plod along. Don't look up for another ten years. But where is the money gonna come from? That doesn't matter. As long as you have a sense of direction and traction to be dealing with in your life, don't look for validation and accolades. Stick to your path and keep aggressively playing to make your inner world stronger and not wait for any validation. Should I stop numbing myself with music and pseudo blogs, without requiring to apply my own mind. What is the way to stop merely consuming and go into hyper-drive and engage your mental faculties which are always on higher gear. What is the correct attitude where you can play the game on your terms. It's only when you have achieved a level of competency and capability which is above and beyond. Don't let yourself gain any sadness should envelop you over all other feelings.
Can I allow myself to go berserk over not being able to memorize the jargon and swim against the tide. Stop asking why I'm struggling. Find your slot and start singing. All the world needs is a new singer who has a new tune to sing. If I need a new perspective on how to view the world, it's like a motorbike which I'm riding out to run away from my mental cage and fears. No more talk about darkness and crapping on others.
Use the available time to express your gratitude for the world as it is. Don't expect the world to bow to your whims and fancy. You need to create your own path. So go ahead and start exploring. The world is there for you to conquer.