Keep at it, bro
What makes this attempt, at better writing, a bit more than a weak flex of the wrist?
It's rather easy to get carried away by nothing of grandeur. Artistic creativity, prolific writing, fall into the same category. Aspirational and good to bandy about, demonstrating our inclination towards moving in with the Jones'.
Why do you feel the need to e ese see DD? Can there be any logic RR rorx structure, for makierng up all these wonky thoughts and wish I'd become a fat-cat writer, someday.
What will make you better? Is it the deliberate practice to become better or even just doing more of it will make me better? But please do define what you mean by "better"?
The thoughts and language should flow. I might stumble upon these words someday, and wonder, who even thinks and writes in this wierd way. Logic, structure and narrative are all notional constraints. You'll just need to keep cranking out words, till it turns into poetry?