How Far Should I Go, Before I check the time, again?
Let me clarify one thing now. I've been struggling and looking for answers. But strangely, I don't know what questions I need to be asking, myself or others. Staying still and thinking about the why and the why, should help the dust to settle.
Stay within your body and stick to the lane of observation, breathing body and mind observation. The more you do these, things will eventually clearup and you'll see the answers emerging without so much of a drag and effort. But I need to find a harder direction to push forward. Is there a need to go forward, when I haven't been able to see clearly what has been happening within myself.
How can we help our son grow up. Why does he not see things like an adult. Does he realize that his brain is still developing and not grown up fully. Dad is altogether another case study. He needs to understand that his behaviour is mostly obnoxious and borders on bullying. Why should we not be able to sit down and discuss the problem like grown ups.
Is there a way forward and how can we escape this trap of living in an endless loop of repeating thought streams which aren't helpful nor beneficial. Is it a good idea to play dumb and not act on any of the ideas. If I observe the mind, will it show up as a movement towards progress.
What is the fear which you have, let me list them, in no particular order, of ridicule, not being ignored, of not being acknowledged. Throw all these to the wind and take a huge leap of faith.
How to have better ideas for a scifi story with technological influences which appear in my dream and can collect random data to a bigger canvas for subsequent analysis and development.
If I am serious about developing the craft, I should study some of the masters, by copying out snippets and see where I can rebuild or reconstruct many of the patterns and how they are inter-woven into bigger bits of consumable content. Is there a skill which is lying in wait for you to just start by picking up the threads and make a move.
Do it buddy, you're on. We have a vast network of memories which we have suppressed into the psyche and the body is mutely engaged without really knowing the why and the how. I need to de-stress first.
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